I'm not feeling so well today, and I haven't felt well in a few days. I'm not going to get into the details of what's bringing me down. I think I'll keep this one to myself. I can be over dramatic sometimes, this I know. But this time, I'm trying really hard to remain positive. It's hard. It's so hard to not expect the worst.
I feel damaged. Broken.
I'm hoping this situation is reparable. I have faith this too shall pass, and I'll look back at this as a learning lesson, a small obstacle in this journey we call life.
Happy, upbeat music does nothing for me when I'm feeling like this. As a matter of fact, it only makes me angrier. The only way I know how to work through times like these is through music that intensifies these already depressing emotions. You can call it self-loathing; I call it therapy.
These five tracks have been on repeat for the past 24 hours, and they'll continue to be on repeat until things get better.
Plumb - Damaged
Pink - Sober
A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras
Modest Mouse - Bukowski
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Desecration Smile
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